So first of all what happened to wordpress? I’m gone for a day and all of a sudden everythings changed. Had a bit of difficulity trying to put up a pic so I shall be pictureless today 
So I guess I should apoligise for not putting up a post yesterday but to be honest it probably would have bored you to death as nothing really happened. But I do have some good news. Me and the man have decided to get married. We have been engaged for a while and we were going to have a big wedding in 4 years but now I’m pregnant I have decided that I would like to be married when he baby is born. I know it’s a bit old fashioned but what can I say that’s just the way I am. So that’s the good news.
The bad news is I’m torn. I want to be married to him as quickly as possible. But part of me still wants the big 150 person wedding in a big white marquee at Belvedere House overlooking the lake. It’s what all little girls want right. To marry the perfect man in the perfect location in the perfect dress with everyone thinking isn’t it just perfect. Yes to all you want a be quacks out there I am a perfectionist. I am the person who stresses about every little detail and yes I believe that appearences have a part in life. They are not everything not even close but when it comes to me I want people to look and say “how does she do it?” My nickname in school was Superwoman because I did so much and I intend to keep that title. So of course I want the perfect wedding. I want everyone to remember and I want to set the standerd. He says that we can still have a good time with a smaller wedding in a low key location like a room in a hotel somewhere and I’m sure we could have a good time and everyone would enjoy themselves. But as bad as it sounds that’s not what I’m concerned with. I want the fireworks, the big ceremony, the big guest list. I guess what I’m saying is I want more. But I have put a lot of thought into it and I have resigned myself to the fact that the fairytale wedding is just that a fairytale. There is no way we could ever afford what I want even if we waited 4 years so such is life I guess. Maybe I could set up a charity, “Give Cassie a Big Wedding Foundation”. Yeah right.
Anyway I’m to wrapped up in my own little world to bother reporting on the news today. So sorry to disappoint.
Anyway thanks for listening to my ramblings.
